The Red Leaves that Change

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What is it that makes nature so unique to the writing world. We can write for hours and hours just about a simple leaf lying on the dirt pressed road. Today this question pondered in my mind. There was a moment when a scatter of red crinkled leaves blew across my feet. They were seeming to dance around one another, half floating half on the ground.

In nature, everything brings a different feel to the rhythm around them, and those little red leaves were showing me this:

Although they have fallen they are not lost. They still play with one another finding joy of a change in their lives. Before they were stuck in the tree where they lived, but down here they can dance and thrive in the wind. The red brightened their being showing me they were meant to be loved.

I felt the energy of their essence, and I began to mold my soul with theirs.  They were so small like a baby crying. All you can do is come up and stop their crying. As you approach the little leaves of wonder. You begin to smile, because they see you there asunder. Their pleas for help have stopped with the sight of you, for all they wanted was to be noticed too. Nature calls our souls to come out and play, and today I did just that as I molded in this spiritual way.

Fall is a time to remember that change isn’t always bad, its a new beginning for all of us. Please feel free to remark on any changes you saw today, whether it be because of fall or your own life’s change.

Made the Quota of 10,000 Words, Finished a Book: Thanks NaNoWriMo!

By day 6 we should have done about 10,000 words for NaNoWriMo. Now that’s hard when you think about it.

I didn’t start off too great, maybe clocking in at about 250 words by the third day. But I am going to tell you now, that if you are slacking you can still catch up. I clocked in today at 10,772 words because I am making it my goal to succeed.

You see, I have a lot of book ideas, and about three unfinished books in total. Well today I accomplished more than just word count, I finally can limit those three books to two. I finished a first book to a trilogy, and feeling ecstatic and impatient  to edit, I know I must wait, because as of right now the second book of that series is at 19,000 words. ….Lets put this together shall we. So if I finish up on my 40,000 words that are due then I will certainly have that other book done!

It’s about time I have had this change. I’ve been slacking with my goals as of late. I just write what I feel and lately that hasn’t been enough. You need to push yourself to write the parts that you may not necessarily like in your book, but are necessary for the plot.

Thanks to everyone for participating in NaNoWriMo, you have given me inspiration to finish what I started!

 

The Writing Monster: Why NaNoWriMo will be the End of Me.

In the past I have mentioned how tremendously hard it can be to beat the clock, but now that its November those posts seem like nothing. NaNoWriMo is here, and it is blowing up in everyone’s faces. Do we have the time to conquer this new quest or must we fall like every other year?
Fight  I say. Today I am skipping the day…not on writing but on life. I am dedicated and will finish this book if it is the last thing I do.

I can see it now, by the end of the month I will be typing so ferociously, and so intensely that not only will I forget all of my bodily duties, but I will become one heaping hot mess. My clothes will be scattered across the apartment, my hair will be in tangled knots from my uncleanliness. My showers will have been forgotten as my mind glazes over and can only focus on one thing- the screen.

My hands, typing so fast, will grow dry and cracked. It should annoy me to the point of putting on lotion if I am in a sound mind, but at this point I would be too far gone. My school will be put on hold, throwing away my very education. The place I call work, may very well be a foreign mishap when I forget to clock in mentally.

There is no telling what I will become, but today is the start of whatever fever I am catching. To stop the world around me is what I am conquering today. Forget the real life I amcurrently living in and delve into the world of my characters. This is the way I must be when writing. If I want to finish NaNoWriMo, and if that wonderful book truly is going to be great.

The risk of being a full time writer is that you have to start thinking like one. Let go of the world and enter the forbidden fortress of your mind. There the creature of a dark world enters your soul and all you are left with is a beast on the outside. For the people that watch you fall into this realm they will be scared. They will witness before their eyes a monster coming out and replacing the person they once knew.

Don’t be scared of this place my friends, it’s a necessary part if you are to participate in NaNoWriMo. Because this month is beyond the possible and in itself is insane, YOU my dear writer must meet its match and become the abominable creature you never knew lived within yourself.

Wish me luck. This month I’m tackling the impossible and you must remember, nothing should be more important to you then your writing if you are  going to be successful.

…Well with a few exceptions of loved ones of course 😉 Please don’t ignore your child or spouse, that’s just asking for a sorrowful chaos to last longer then just our precious November.

As always feel free to comment below, and tell me about the monster you have seen come out of its shell this month!

A. Willow

 

A Mother’s Heart

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Yes this adorable creature really is my dog! Well at about three months anyway 😉 Her name is Maryjane

I have never known what it truly means or even feels like to be a mother of a child, but I do know how it feels to be a mother of a pet. You watch them grow, smile at their wonderful achievements, and glare at the person who would DARE to make fun of them.

Watching my dog grow up was exactly like being a mother. She tried my patience, took me for granted, and whined when she didn’t get her way. Although it was tough during those early morning wake up calls for a bathroom break, and when she made an accident because I was away for far too long, being with her for the past 9 years has been the best thing that ever happened to me.

The reason behind my post today was due to an aching choice I must make.  I must pick between taking my wonderful dog with me to my new place or keep her here with family where she may wind end up happier.

Do you know what that feels like? To decide if you want to take a pet with you so you can love her and cherish her, or to keep her in a more stable and suitable environment?

Its heart aching, that what it is. You feel your insides curl up wishing that things could be different. Like a wave of nausea that hits you full force and doesn’t want to untangle from your skin.

The choice of the mother today is unsure. Whether it tis nobler to bring her with or to keep her with my other family members. That is the question I am battling against on this day.

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I hope everyone doesn’t have to make the same type of choice I do, because it is HARD. Extremely hard, and I wouldn’t like for others to feel the same type of pain I am going through. I wish everyone well, and if you have any questions or comments feel free to write to me below.

A. Willow

 

Change

Change is inevitable, irreversible, and necessary for every living thing. We all must age, everyone changes their perception, but the change that seems to matter the most are the changes we make on our own. woman-moving-boxes-istock-de

Today while I was packing, trying to figure out why on earth I had decided to move, it hit me. We all must go through change, but its our own choices that make us grow. We chose to walk a different path. We wanted to move on from the life we were previously living, and most of all we wanted change.

Although I have to admit, it can be really scary. Thinking about my life financially, friendships, and family really made me nervous. It affected each of them in different ways, and I didn’t know if I was making the right choice.

But if I stumble and there are a few mistakes here or there, that is okay. If for some reason this move doesn’t work out, and I’m left crying about the separation, I know that, in the process, I will be GROWING. 

I laughed at myself with this thought as I taped a box and set it on top of my small stack.

Think about it in these terms, and if you are a writer or avid reader then you know exactly what I mean.

Each protagonist in a story is going to change. The characters that grow are the ones that you view as your heroes. Now think about the villains or the ones you don’t like. Change seems to affect them very little if at all. That’s because a villain is set in his/her ways and they don’t want to grow.

This shows us that as individuals we want to see ourselves as well as our heroes grow in life. You cannot love a superhero if he keeps fighting the same battles and making the same mistakes over and over again. You would get frustrated and say “didn’t you learn anything from last time?”

So if your writing a story, or reading a book, look for this in particular. If you dislike a certain character this could be the main reason.

I will admit, I did stop packing to write this post, but I felt the need to tell everyone what was running through my mind. I want everyone to see that we all must grow in order to move on with our lives and learn new things. It may be a scary step, and possibly not in our choice to make, but the outcome will be well worth it.

Thank you for reading, and I hope everyone can begin to see change a little differently. Comment below if you have any thoughts, or feel free to tell a story about what changed you.

A. Willow

 

The Instance of Gold

What is it to us if people view our work? Does it actually matter how many hits our site takes, or how much recognition we get from fans?

The answer is yes, it does matter. Everyone wants to be noticed whether they want to admit it to themselves or not. It’s the way our human minds work. To feel respected and honored at finding out that people appreciate all the hard work that we do.

Because, my fellow bloggers, we do work hard.

We follow our dreams whether it is writing, painting, or socializing. We step foot into a world where no one else dares to go, because they see it as foolish and not the “correct” way of life.  The biggest thing that separates us is that we have a dream. A dream to be bigger, and greater, than we are right now. To achieve what seems to be the impossible, but we know deep down in our hearts that our dream is true.

Can you feel it. That raw energy coursing through your bones as you do the thing you love. Writers getting a sensual high when they’re on the brink of a tremendous idea, just like when painters feel the rhythm in their brush as they paint the flowers.

It may take time for you to notice it, or for you to find the one thing that makes up your dream in life.

The reason I’m bringing this up on this very special day is that I have finally found my purpose. I’ve known for years that I wanted to be a writer. Storming the impossible book industry that is incredibly hard to break through.  It was today though, while I was sitting in class that I realized I don’t need to follow the “correct” way of life anymore.

Why should I waste my time learning things that I don’t care to learn about. Why shouldn’t I focus my energy on figuring out the book industry now instead of learning about the history of a writer who has been dead for over 100 years?

For many, we may feel the pressure to follow the way our societies want us to go. They may force school down your throat, or shove a big paying job in your hands, and tell you to be happy because you are successful….

But is that truly being successful?

Because if you aren’t able to do the one thing that makes you happy, is that a success!?!

I’ve learned through life, as a creative person, that I don’t belong in the social majority. Writing should be my life, and it WILL be my life all because of a dream to be great.

I’m not trying to tell anyone that they need to quit school or leave their jobs, but what I’m trying to show you is that just because it’s the norm, does NOT mean you have to follow the rules.

Rules are made to break. And when you finally see that your heart and soul are with you on this journey those rules will vanish completely.

Follow your heart and know that with each step you take it gf-heartbrings you closer to your dreams.

Writer Appreciation!

This post is to my fellow writers I have interacted with online. I would like to thank everyone for being brave enough to put their work out there and show the world what we can do. Today I will be dedicating my time to showing everyone the fascinating things I have found on the web within the past week. They are all blogs and I hope everyone can get a chance to support and create that sense of strong community I know we have.

Blog 1– The first I would like to show grabbed my attention as a fantasy genre writer, but after looking at the picture it became much deeper. Not only did she write a wonderful expression of what we need to do when we are going through pain, but she also gives a drawing she drew herself. I loved this combination, and you are my #1 for the week! Keep up the good work Emily, and show everyone your wisdom of getting past the hard times. Feel free to look her up at  Emily’s Remedies at Life is Pain

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Blog 2–  The next blogger is someone whose writing spoke out to me. She has written a book that I am planning on reading soon, but after reading the first few chapters I fell in love with the way she writes. Please visit Bledel Brook’s  blog Live’s I’ve Lived and check out her book on Amazon. Its about overcoming hardships of a young girl growing up into a woman.

Blog 3– A simple father that warms the heart of all of us. Short poems make it an easy quick read, but they stay in your heart and soul for the whole day through. Click on the  The Happy Husband and see what a father can produce through love and caring affection.

Blog 4– The last one of the day is another poem. This specific poem shows us that we may not like the person on shattered-mirrorthe other side of the mirror, but we should handle with reason and not a brutal force of destruction. You should visit the blog Saleem Dreams and the poem Self Reflections. And take a look at his other poems as well.

Thank you fellow writers and dreamers for sharing your hard work with the world. I chose you specifically because I found inspiration in each of your posts. There is a light that shines, and shows that human beings can overcome the dark side of ourselves. In this world today, too many people are falling to the darkness, and I find these writings refreshing. There is hope, there can be change, and there is love out there. We just have to go out and find it!

Please let me know any thought, comment or question you may have. I like talking to aspiring writers, and would love to grow my community with you!

Your community friend,

A. Willow